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Unfortunatly, I had a really nice day today. I say unfortunatly because I was supposed to be having a horrible day of study and death, but instead I:

Woke up early, read my book for a bit, did my makeup properly, cleaned my room.

met mel at school after her exam and bought new swimmers in woden, booked tickets for new moon.

got home, read my book all afternoon until i finished it now (at 6;10pm) generally relaxed and felt good about myself.

Also the book was about new beginnings, falling in love again etc etc so very inspiring and happy :)

If it's meant to be...

had a pretty great couple of days. I messaged yuri for his birthday and it felt really good and mature and just nice. still miss him.

gossip girl this week was the BEST ohhhh my god. mel and i were watching it and we were leaping all over the bed shrieking and grabbing each other at the suspense lol good times

have another shitty boring weekend of study ahead of me, but after that is sweet sweet freedom from wednesday! oh my god cannot wait. Today I had an exam (english i raped it :P) then went to work, then washed my car. I'm so awesome.

think i'm hanging out with ash tonight but i'm getting kinda sleepy so not sure. I have a desire to call mel and hassle her cause i'm bored but i shall refrain as she is trying to study.

Also got a new job! working at epic promotions like mel. I think doing wine tastings etc.

I want to be vanessa. Or I'll take being jenny. or even serena in season one. I want new clothes! cannot wait to be relaxing on the beach.

The photo is what i'm dreaming about right now. Perfection.

when i moved to this neighbourhood the only thing that cost twenty bucks was a handjob from a tranny.

It's Yuri's birthday tomorrow, and so i have been thinking about him quite alot. Also i am watching sex and the city and carrie and big is totally me and yuri. so many parrallels it's crazy.

Reading Jane's blog about new years etc made me think about some resolutions of my own, althouhg luckily i feel like i'm doing pretty ok. basic/classic ones being

1. sticking to the healthy eating and the regular exercise. i'm hoping i can become one of those excercise junkies before school starts again

2. being more social at uni next year, making some more uni friends, trying to extend my social network.

but basically all i want is serenity and contentment. I have happiness, and a great life, but i am not content, and that is about yuri. I don't have any great desire to travel, (although i would like to hit europe) I'm really loving my wardrobe/hair right now (well not so loving the hair, but loving it ok and excited about it being long) I would like to move out although i have a great relationship with the fam and accept that my money issues will not really stretch that far at the moment. So basically that leaves one area of my life. I know i can't force myself to try and get over him, or get too worked up with paranoia about his life, so i still just want contentment.

This is why over this year I have shifted from team edward to team jacob. Edward is drama. Jacob is stability, love, affection, contentment. All the good things, not the bad. Not having drama isn't a bad thing.

oh that's what gay is? oh i could totally get into that.

tomorrow i have a nice day at home planned, i shall do some washing, do some cleaning, and read the eyre affair. ahhh domestic bliss.

Vrocks party on the weekend, went with mel and elk talked trash about mtv. Just been hanging out with melon and elk, we went to a semi bbq at alexs, although none of us ate the meat, so really we sat in the backyard eating dips and chatting. it was good.

elk came over on sunday (my one designated study day) and painted paintings with steph on the back deck. so naturally i was distracted and did not much of anything. However, i had the exam today so that's over.

I was very drained after exam and just lay around, went to work, got pissed off at everyone, came home and lay around. Luckily mel came over and perked me up with talk of beaches, aussie bikinis, foreshore, new years. pretty much everything good is coming up. i was going to go shopping with melon for my aussie bikini on wednesday but melon will have to study now cause of exam revelation, so maybe i shall go myself. or actually, i might save it to buy for myself after exams as my treat. I'm going to veg out in front of family guy till i fall asleep now.

I'm walking on sunshine.

Things I did today:

Watched some of season one of gossip girl

cleaned my room

painted my nails

Things I did NOT do today:

Study.

I'm dead. But at least I have lots of pretty things to look at. Mum picked me some sweet peas :)

brussels griffon.

this is the dog i am getting.

i am not a whore. but i like to do it.

Haven't updated in a while, just haven't been bothered to write anything.

Tomorrow is the races :D i am so excited. everyone is going to look so freaking cute! I am avoiding doing exam study and that is what brings me back to blog. What else have I been doing? Hmmm can't remember, it's been quieter lately, as everyone is settling into exam hibernation for the next couple of weeks.

The weather has been super awesome though, and the lightening of the weather equals a lightening of my mood. With the rise in temperature i feel like i have lost ten kilos of baggage, and are just frolicking around easiely, nothing seems to matter as much, nothing seems to have consequences. I feel easier about yuri. Not trying to force myself to get over him, or not think about him, has taken the pressure off and making it alot easier. Jane, put up the freak halloween photo of you in the background :P

I think I am going swimming in Josh's pool this arvo after work which will be fabulous after i swelter at work soon. Rowan came round yesterday, we just hung out was very nice. Saw t last week. And schorn and tam, catching up with everyone lol. Cannot wait for exams to be over.

happiness :)