But I can't fix you, and you don't want me.

Having a pretty good couple of days, hanging out around the house doing chores.

Went to a bbq on sunday, drank delicious cocktails, smoked illegal substances and laughed alot.

Tonight tam is getting her housewife on and cooking a dinner party for all of us, and we are to dress up ala edie sedgewick and others from the factory. fabulous big earrings, short dresses, looking forward to the photos.

Have been talking to the ex lately, and it's actually fine. Probably just having a good couple of days, but it feels good, we are possibly becoming (gasp) friends, although i am still very wary of it, and have not been the one to initiate contact at all. Which feels good.

Have several new men on my sights, things are looking good :)

I'm so fucked right now. work is going to kill me. tired.
mawso last night. Awesome night. Shouldn't have drank so much.

it's hard out there for a pimp.

going out again tonight.
Bit torn as to what to do, cause there is the foam party tonight, but i don't know if i feel like it, and Rowan is having birthday drinks at the mawso, so thinking I should go to that. I think i will do whatever adi wants to do, and then blame it on her if anyone is upset ;)
Hopefully she'll be tired, and we can just do casual drinks, cause there is ANU foam party in a couple of weeks, and I definatly do not want to be foamed out. Although, maybe i should just suck it up and go, have a good time.

Was driving the other night and was listening to the presets, and just felt so ridiculously, insanely happy and free. Love.
I love seeing old friends, making them new friends, drinking, dancing, and life at the moment. I wish adi would come over right now. In the mood for socialising.

strange and beautiful.

went out to civic for jane and deans 20th on saturday night, it was such a good night. Best night I've had out in civic for a long time. Spent most of our time at Bar 32, which was awesome, music was wayy better than anywhere else.

Was so good to see everyone, Jang and dean have some fun friends, got to dance around like crazy, felt very free, and light, and happy.

Having a way better couple of days, my mood has just swung the other way and i'm feeling on top of the world. Hopefully it will stay this way for a long time. Everything just seems really good right now, especially friends. I can't wait to have regular income again, so i can do things without worrying, hoping to see more people this week, and then this weekend we are going to newcastle for my cousins baby shower :D

your hearts a mess.

Appropriate title. I'm trying not to allow myself time to wallow, but having a bit of a down day, probably because I'm so drained.

I know you can't compare other people to yourself, but it just seems like everyone around me has all these people interested in and are over their ex's and i just feel like I am stuck. I still care about Yuri way too much, and probably everyone else can pick up on it.

I just want to move on, desperately, but it's freaking difficult.

I still just miss him so much.

On a brighter note, had a great week, hung out with Jane on friday, drank wine, sat on the balcony, watched love actually and random crap on the tv. was so good to see her :) then just been hanging around, went to tams for aus day, and then to deano and janes drinks for their birthday.

Things I'm looking forward to: a couple of early nights, tonight and tomorrow night, going out on saturday, oweek, meeting new people.

I am in fact desperate to meet new people. Anyone got friends hiding who I would love? :P

looking at that photo makes me happy and sad. With the cooler, overcast weather today, it makes summer seem like a million miles away, but there is still so much more to look forward to

new yorkkk.

god dammit the damn cops defected my car for not having working brake lights. so now for the next several days i have to get around without my car, and then spend many hours waiting while it is fixed, and then completing all the beuracractic (that word looks wrong?) forms and bullshit to get it all fixed up so i can drive again.
Annnooyyyinnnggg...
on the plus, cooking elk dinner tomorrow night, going to janes friday, girls night saturday. Life is not so bad :)

xoxo gossip girl.

much as i do love the warmer weather, and all the joys that summer brings me, sunlight, beaches, parties, sitting outside watching the world get dark, i am beginning to crave the joys of dressing for the cooler weather.

the layering, the tights, the cute boots, beanies, scarves, gloves. ohhhhh the joys! I need to actually buy some long sleeved shirts this winter. and i want to invest in some more long sleeve dresses. so damn cute.

nonetheless, i will still make the most of the simplicity of dressing for summer. shorts and singlet, or dress, and done.