i have been feeling a bit lost lately. It is really wearing me down being alone all the time and missing yuri, and i just don't know how to make that not happen. I've been keeping happy, seeing friends, doing fun things, and i just don't know what else i can do to make things change.
My default emotion used to be a kind of muted happiness, and i'd just float through life without a care in the world, now it is just a kind of stressed sadness, and i really don't know how to deal with it. I'm waiting for it to pass, but i am starting to freak out that it might be hanging around for good.

Father of the bride.

Haven't updated in a long time. I've been staying out late, drinking champagne and cosmos, getting lapdances off strippers, watching the hills, hanging out with my girls.
Rowan is in town, he surprised me :) I was so damn happy to see him, i have work tonight but then i have the whole day off tomorrow and we're having a sleepover :)

Things have been hard about men lately, but i'm optimistic that i will find someone new. I just need patience, which is definitely not my strong suit. In the mean time I will continue to depend on my friends and family for happiness. As well as good books, a good nights sleep, good tv shows, bagels, photos and fun nights out.

hoping to get a friendship with my workmates happening, expanding my circle of people is the key. I can't meet anyone new, if i don't meet anyone new.